I Took Action

It feels silly to come back on to my neglected blog after so long but, I am out of hiatus and hopefully this blogging bug won't be short lived.

So, I am just going to say it.  The past 3-4 years of my life, I have been in a less than stellar state. I hate to sound dramatic. I took a step back and admitted it to myself as I found my life was starting to look more and more like a mess. I really felt like an idiot.  I have so much to be grateful for that why on earth should I be so unhappy and why had I not been creating better opportunities?

The truth is your environment has so much to do with your mood.  I was in a work environment that sucked out all the good traits from me and left me with nothing after I clocked out. I went home tired, irritated, and with no desire to go enjoy myself. I thought about my lost friendships and what happened- why did we lose touch? The answer again was WORK.

I took action. I told myself that although there were things about my job that I loved that it did not surpass the joy I was missing outside of work. I missed so much and my daughter is a non-negotiable.

I did the logical thing and started thinking about options that may work for me and what I wanted out of a career. I made a list of things that I enjoyed about my long time job- it's fast paced, competitive, interacting with new faces, and selling. I then thought about things I hated about my job- managing people who didn't have strong work ethics, being responsible for things that I don't have 100% control over, holidays were blacked out, having to cover other people's shifts, and lack of self accomplishments.

I also knew that I had to change something more drastic than my job- I changed my mind set. I needed to say yes more than no. I wanted to experience more and smile more. I knew that listening to nagging and complaining all day was getting to me and that I had become a not so positive person.  I used to be a go getter!!  I realized that I became the kind of person that I despise- an excuse maker!

So long story short- I changed my life. I got a new job (Realtor), spend way more time with my family and friends, joined some organizations that are doing great things in my community, started attending church and have been in the process of structuring my life. It has been a BIG change but a positive one. It has been 5 months and I feel like a different person.

To all of you who feel trapped- you CAN escape. Yes, not all things are easily done and it is scary but do not let the important things in life pass you by for something that makes  you feel miserable.